Jingle Bells
Christmas is closing in fast. Though it's starting to calm down for me. I still have that irritating assignment to do >_< I'll take a look at it soon. Right now shower and dishes awaits.
Why things are starting to calm down is really because I'm almost done with part one of my gift shopping spree. I'll finish the last tomorrow, and then I'm done for a little while. I have some more to buy once I get back home, but that's future me's problem. If only I could get that assignment out of my way I'd be at peace. In one way, I've almost considered just ignoring the entire assignment and wish for the best. I don't know.
I'm leaving in two days, for those who didn't know. Two days. It doesn't feel like I'm leaving really. It doesn't feel like it's almost Christmas either. Christmas... CHRISTMAS. I don't know.. has that word lost its meaning to me? I no longer get that same feeling for Christmas that I used to get. I wonder if one year from now, I'll still be at the same spot, with the same troubles, with the same lack of Christmas spirit. If there's one thing. One thing, I wish for for 2011.. it's an apartment.
I feel like I'm going crazy really. I'm going crazy living this life I live today. I'm stuck, while still moving forward. Like a part of me is stuck, while the other part is rushing forward.. It's breaking me apart. But no one seems to understand.
I don't want to live like I do. It depresses me. To be away from you. Sometimes I feel like giving up... heck with it
I'd give anything to be with you. Forever.