Waking up at 7am on a Saturday is not really fun, especially if you went to bed after 1am. But it was moving day for my mom, and of course I volunteered to help.

Apparently I was a bit too optimistic concerning the plans for today, as I thought it wouldn't take very long and I'll have the rest of the day to relaxing. That of course didn't go as planned, and it took several more hours than expected. So right now every single muscle aches, and I feel totally spent. Still.. it feels good.

After I came home I played some World of Tanks with my brother, as I felt I've been neglecting him too much lately. I've thought about going to the movies with him or something, but I just never get around to it. There's always so much else to do, haha. But it was nice to get some time for that as well for a change.

Something else I got some time for was testing out ToR, which I talked about yesterday. My gal' was visiting friends, so what better time to sit down, relax after a long day and unleash the geek on a brand new game?

Honestly I was a bit skeptic to it, and feared it'd just crash and burn like everything else in the MMO market trying to compete against WoW. But I got positively surprised by it, and it turned out to be quite fun. I'd probably continue playing right now if I didn't feel like my time is running out for this evening (no time for games? haha, a few years ago there was no such thing as "no time for games") . There's a lot of things that feels refreshing compared to WoW, but at the same time it's hard comparing the two at this stage. WoW really is a big MMO that's very social, while ToR almost feels like a single player game except that you can see the other players playing it.

That's both good and bad I guess. I'm probably very drawn to it because I love single player RPGs, and have played the Knights of the Old Republic games years ago. But having a good, compelling story line from the start, that's special to your class feels great. Lets you learn the story, and your character in a fun and calm environment. I've only played the first few levels, so I have no clue about how dungeons, pvp and all that works. But so far it's very interesting, and there's hope for it.

Almost makes me want to buy them game when it releases. Almost.

I've been sitting here, doing a couple of minor things, and waited for my The Old Republic game client to finish updating. But I started running out of minor things and the update seems to take forever, so why not write a quick post? ;)

Tova's out driving around with a friend of hers, and I'm patiently waiting for her to come home again. While she's been away I decided to write a couple of emails, go through some financial stuff and just browse around. After a while I realized though, that The Old Republic beta is up this weekend, and I was lucky enough to get in ^_^ (we'll just ignore the fact that pretty much everyone can get into this weekend test if they just opted in for beta testing a while back.. I'm still special! :o) So I launched the client I already conveniently installed in advance to avoid waiting times, but that didn't really go as planned because there's that thing called patches. So right now I'm waiting for that to finish.

I don't think I'll be playing much though, especially not tonight. I'll probably not even get inside the game tonight, but I just want to take the opportunity to get a quick first look at it.

I like Star Wars, and this game is really hyped up, but I'm still not that excited about it. There's been loads of MMOs that were hyped before launch, and now you barely hear about them. Like Age of Conan, Warhammer and Rift. Maybe ToR is good enough to avoid joining that list.. or maybe it isn't. No matter which one proves to be correct, I wont be playing it in the foreseeable future. Unless you count this short beta of course.

Time constrains and especially money and computer power constrains just makes it tough. It's a game I want to try out, and I think it might be fun (even just for a while), but currently it's not a very great idea to invest in a new MMO that will cost money and time. A MMO that probably wont be extremely enjoyable either due to my current hardware. Sure I could run it, but I'm quite picky nowadays. I want the game experience to feel great, or I wont afford spending my time with it.

Maybe later though. If a trial pops up, school ends and someone upgraded my PC without me knowing about it.. I'd give it a shot

At least I did it now, haha. The blog is now on my VPS server and runs more smoothly, and I updated the software while I was at it. So no need to worry about that anymore.

A lot has happened since last time. I've started my (hopefully ;)) last year of studies, which are well underway. And I've visited Tova  a couple of times.. oh yeah, I got engaged ;)

Christmas is closing in, and all my plans have caused me to spend quite a lot of money. First off I'm going to fly up and see Tova, where I'll stay for a week and celebrate Christmas. Then we'll both travel down with train to Gothenburg, where we'll spend our New Year's Eve in a luxury suite. I can't wait to sit in that jacuzzi ^_^ And when she travels back home is still undecided, but we'll try to enjoy it as much as possible!

But before all that happens, I still have school to worry about. It's going better than last year, but it's still a.. burden in a way. Everyone feels that way I guess, but having such a hard time outside of school as well, makes it harder.

Something I used to do to relax when I was younger was play games. I've always been a gamer, but lately with my depression and all, it's just harder to get into. I never feel I have time for anything but WoW and school. I really wish I had, and I wish I'd be able to enjoy that time if it was given to me.

I don't really want to give up on it, because it's something I absolutely love. But I don't really know how to get back into it. In a way I think I need to have more "me-time", where I can pick and choose to do anything I want. And another thing that would help is to actually upgrade my PC, something I've been wanting to do for ages.

It just saddens me to have all these games that I want to play, but know that my computer is having a hard time handling them. And it saddens me even more, that no matter how much I try to save, there will always be an expense with higher priority than a computer.

Right now it goes to being able to see and be with my girlfriend, and things surrounding that. Soon it will go to gifts and other Christmasy stuff. Maybe after that? Nope, there always pops up something. Like if I'd finally get my hands on an apartment, the money would go to it. And then it would go to saving up for trips. And maybe after that to saving for a wedding? I need more money to solve my problems, haha.

First of all, I'm still alive. Which is pretty positive ;) Aaand I've finished my second year of school! (or third year, depending on how you look at it) Feels great having that off my shoulders for  about two months. My plans for the summer is pretty much get into some serious gaming again, work out regularly and work on my projects.

I'm sure after the summer I'll feel like I didn't do anything of what I wanted to do. But at least I've tried.

Right now I'm at Tova's. Celebrated her 20th birthday the day before yesterday with a lot of yummy homemade pastries and random relatives. Now I'm just in her room, doing random stuff while waiting for her to get home from work.

Going to transfer this blog to another server soonish, so it may be down for a small window of time. Not that anyone reads and will notice it though ;)

Until next time!

Now I'll have to continue with Math. We're not really working with anything complicated, but it's still tiresome work. But I just have to do this and I'll be almost done with the entire course. I just have to finish up an old assignment and do the national tests.

Other news is that I've ordered my first VPS. Sad part will be the increased monthly cost of my overall hosting. Which goes up from $25 to $50. But hopefully it will be worth it by getting a website environment that works smoother, and all the various knowledge I'll learn by playing around with it. Time will tell.

Anyhow, nothing lengthy this time. Time to get back to work.

About 4 hours of my 18 hour trip has passed. It's 11.18pm and I do feel quite tired already. I tried to get some energy by buying two bottles of Pepsi (They have no coke), but alas. So unless my tiredness fades, I'll probably go to bed soon.

I wish I had a traveling companion.

I'll arrive around 3.17pm, and if all goes as planned I'll have a long overdue "cup of coffee" with my sister. Minus the coffee part. Yuck.

After that I'll just go home and take it easy for a while. And then hell awaits with its challenges. Lets see if we can reach some more neutral ground soon, it's taking a toll on me.

Also, on a different note. Any WoW people out there supporting the alliance? ;) We need to regroup and counter attack the ever charging horde.

So instead of writing at the beginning of the week, lets write at the end of the week.

It's Easter! .. not that I'm really excited whether it's Easter or not. :P I'm just happy you get to be free from school for a week during this time. Well, somewhat free anyway. I promised my teacher that I'd do an assignment, that's due today. And you guessed correctly, it's not yet done. But it will be. Hopefully.

But yeah, since it's Friday, that means I only have one more night here before my long journey home begins. I'm a bit sad that I haven't been able to see Tova that much due to her large amount of work. But that's how life is I guess. You wait two months to come here and wait for your loved one to get home so you can see a movie and go to bed :P

Some day maybe life will be more gentle on me. Some day.

And if we'll move on to the "VPS" part of the subject.. VPS stands for Virtual Private Server. A server is a computer that's meant to serve other computers. A private server is obviously your own server, or that no one else can configure that server but you. Aand Virtual Private Server is almost like a private server, with the exception that it isn't a server of it's own. It's been virtually created within a server. Like a server within a server. So no one can configure that server but you, just like a ordinary private server (or dedicated server). But since it's not standalone it has its downsides. At least it's as close you can get to the cake without actually getting the cake. And to a fraction of the cost as well.

Now, I'm sure most of you skipped that part. But the point I was getting at is that I'll be getting a VPS most likely. Due to recent events concerning one of my websites. It will double my hosting bills, but I'm sure it will be fun to play around with.

Anyway, I have to return to trying to study.

Until next time

So anyway, I thought that I'd throw another blog post at you since I'm already up and going. Fun thing is that I usually get shot down quite quickly whenever I'm on a roll of some sort. So gotta tread carefully..

It's Thursday, almost Friday. Tomorrow will hopefully go without any major issues. I have some kind of oral presentation, but I'm not sure if I'll do it tomorrow or not. I've prepared myself somewhat, but I'd rather watch others do it before me so that I can gather intelligence. If that's cowardly or smart I don't know.. Maybe both? .. probably

It will be nice to get this week done however. It's been quite a ride. If I've reached shelter yet is unknown.

Been playing a bit of Dragon Age when time has allowed. Made a female human this time around. My first attempt on finishing the game was with a male dalish elf warrior. I wasn't too happy with it because I went and made him an archer. I really disliked the damage he made. So with a rogue this time maybe I'll fair better.

Oh well, I'll keep this short and sweet.

Until next time

Other news.. It's not much left until my week off. Which kinda scares and excites me at the same time. It's exciting since I'll see my girl ^_^ And it scares me because that means there's not much left of this school term.. which in turn means I got tons of stuff to do, and little time to do it. Lovely

Also, something I forgot to mention is that I finally updated the blog software. Sure it's pretty much just push a button, but I wanted to backup the database and such just in case. But yeah, welcome WordPress 3.1!

Talking about updating.. I got a surprise visitor on my other website. And that visitor was the founder. Those who didn't know, I never created that website, I just took over about two years ago when the founder had limited time and had to focus on studies. Fun thing I guess is that he's come back to the role of administrator/webmaster, and has started updating things I haven't had time with. And he's accomplished more in mere days than I have in my two years. Makes me feel kinda.. incompetent. Not that I should complain really, it's good the place gets some updating :)

Anyhow, that's it for me for now. Time to figure out something else to do.

During the past few years I've driven myself so deep I wonder if I'll ever get out of this gigantic hole. It doesn't help when life shows me a way to the surface and then blocks the exit just as I got my hopes up.

Feels pretty stupid to complain on this blog too. I could just as well write in a private journal or something. I think I even have a old journal I used to write a bit in, though that is for no one's eyes but my own.

No, this is getting too negative..